Ya. More intro to kpop. But this time round, intro more club beat music. Their new MV call "Sorry Sorry".
Love the beat of the music. Some more can look at some of the eye candies.
This korean band consider of 13 guys. With some of them in acting, DJ-ing, modelling etc. Dun ask me why so many people in 1 group but from what I know this group got a few sub groups. Some time they split into smaller group for other purpose. Like sub group call "Super Junior M" is target at Mandarin group audience where they sing in mandarin etc.
At first I don't really listen to their music but mainly for their variety shows in korean like "Explore Human Body" where they try to find out what the human body can do like the tasting,speed etc. Cause in that shows, they are funny and dorky. Besides that, they are in the same company as DBSK my favorite band.
But this time round, I like their new 3rd album. Another song that i like is this song call "Why I like you" also another song that can dance to.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Saturday, February 21, 2009
My favourite Band
Back with my crave on korea stuff or should I say jpop? Consider that they from Korea and been famous through their country with their songs but when they are in their top of their games, they been launch to Japan to be a part of foreign group trying out in the Japan music industry.
I came to like this boy group a lot for the past 1 year or so and been watching their past performances on every video channel that I can access to before the video been remove due to the copyright of the shows/company.
Most of the people who know about the kpop should know this group of boy group very well. They are the DBSK or TVXQ or Tohoshinki or 东方神起 consider where their fans are from. Usually I just search for their latest performances by DBSK name. Causes most of their fans would just list all their group names under the tags.
I just too lazy to write when they are form. So I just paste the link of wiki of their group information and when they went to Japan to launch their japanese songs.
Here is the link of wiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TVXQ
I just write why I like this group a lot. They are humor in their variety shows and humble. I just like to see them goofy around when they are in their interview or before their perfomances. I like the seriousness when they do their music/perfomances. Love how they treat each other in their ways. They are tall from 178cm to 188cm. Beside that, they are handsome in their own ways.
Watch this youtube. I love their acapella but then this song is in Japanese and not in Korean. Consider that I don't know the language but their voices are still beautiful.
This video is in their early days when they just started out in Japan. Their dances are super nice. Kekeke. Love it.
Now introduct the group members.
Starting from the elderest.
Jae Joong
The flower boy, consider that his face is the prettiest among the guys of the group.
Like the way he talk without thinking when he's in comfort zone. Love the way how he treat his members. Basically he love to cook for the members when they live together in Japan.
Yunho
My 2nd favourite member. He's the leader of the group. He dance well. He's humble. He like kids a lot. Love his kindness when he donate money to his school and ask his fans to donate to the needy. When the group members are in their "crazy mood", he would try to save the situation before it goes out of hand. Love his manly look, consider that he got 3 scars on his face accidentally and 1 scar near his throat from surgery. Now you can't see the scars as it been photoshop away or through the makeup. Love his cute tiger tooth smile before he straighten his teeth. Love to see him hugging his group members and pray before their perfomances/awards.
Yoochun
He's consider as the fashion guide in their group. Alway ahead of fashion in his own way. His hairstyles alway changing. I like the way that he's emotion. Like him when he tease my favourite member in funny way. Love his expression the most. He's dorky in a way. He the one with better English as he been living in US when he was young.
Junsu
My favourite member of all even thought he not the usual handsome guy but his charisma is the one that I like about. He is the type of handsome that grow on you everytime you see him. I started to notice this band because of him. When I came across the song that he sang "Timeless" with Zhang Li Yin in youtube. In the begining, I just like the music of it and the MV even thought I don't understand Korean at all causes it very sad like those melodrama music in Korea drama. I love his voice a lot but can't say much when he sing in English or Mandarin as his accent is very strong. Maybe that why the members love to tease him to spell in English. He constant "bullied" by the group members as they all know that he wouldn't be really angry. He would usually laugh it off and joking scold his group members back. Love his cutness. Love his seriousness when he on stage. Love the way that he dance. Love his dorkness when he with his group members. Love the way he eat. Love him when he space off on his own.
Changmin
He's the youngest and the tallest among the group members. Like his constant stares at his older members when they are talking. Like his loves of food. Alway constant cut off by Junsu when it his question time. Like him constant "bicker" with Junsu. Love his smiling eyes when he really happy. When he's mad, he would become scary but most of the time he usually quiet and shy. Sometime when I look at his picture of his longer hair style, it kind of remind me of younger version Jerry Yan of Taiwan F4 or Ceng Shao Zong of Taiwan 可米小子, so i prefer his shorter hair.
So that the reasons why I love this group a lot even thought I don't understand Korean or Japanese language at all. It their way of carry themselves, their groofness, their dorkness, their kindness ,their seriousness in their music, their voices, their dances and care of the others that why they been love by the fans from other countries.
I came to like this boy group a lot for the past 1 year or so and been watching their past performances on every video channel that I can access to before the video been remove due to the copyright of the shows/company.
Most of the people who know about the kpop should know this group of boy group very well. They are the DBSK or TVXQ or Tohoshinki or 东方神起 consider where their fans are from. Usually I just search for their latest performances by DBSK name. Causes most of their fans would just list all their group names under the tags.
I just too lazy to write when they are form. So I just paste the link of wiki of their group information and when they went to Japan to launch their japanese songs.
Here is the link of wiki http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/TVXQ
I just write why I like this group a lot. They are humor in their variety shows and humble. I just like to see them goofy around when they are in their interview or before their perfomances. I like the seriousness when they do their music/perfomances. Love how they treat each other in their ways. They are tall from 178cm to 188cm. Beside that, they are handsome in their own ways.
Watch this youtube. I love their acapella but then this song is in Japanese and not in Korean. Consider that I don't know the language but their voices are still beautiful.
This video is in their early days when they just started out in Japan. Their dances are super nice. Kekeke. Love it.
Now introduct the group members.
Starting from the elderest.
Jae Joong
The flower boy, consider that his face is the prettiest among the guys of the group.
Like the way he talk without thinking when he's in comfort zone. Love the way how he treat his members. Basically he love to cook for the members when they live together in Japan.
Yunho
My 2nd favourite member. He's the leader of the group. He dance well. He's humble. He like kids a lot. Love his kindness when he donate money to his school and ask his fans to donate to the needy. When the group members are in their "crazy mood", he would try to save the situation before it goes out of hand. Love his manly look, consider that he got 3 scars on his face accidentally and 1 scar near his throat from surgery. Now you can't see the scars as it been photoshop away or through the makeup. Love his cute tiger tooth smile before he straighten his teeth. Love to see him hugging his group members and pray before their perfomances/awards.
Yoochun
He's consider as the fashion guide in their group. Alway ahead of fashion in his own way. His hairstyles alway changing. I like the way that he's emotion. Like him when he tease my favourite member in funny way. Love his expression the most. He's dorky in a way. He the one with better English as he been living in US when he was young.
Junsu
My favourite member of all even thought he not the usual handsome guy but his charisma is the one that I like about. He is the type of handsome that grow on you everytime you see him. I started to notice this band because of him. When I came across the song that he sang "Timeless" with Zhang Li Yin in youtube. In the begining, I just like the music of it and the MV even thought I don't understand Korean at all causes it very sad like those melodrama music in Korea drama. I love his voice a lot but can't say much when he sing in English or Mandarin as his accent is very strong. Maybe that why the members love to tease him to spell in English. He constant "bullied" by the group members as they all know that he wouldn't be really angry. He would usually laugh it off and joking scold his group members back. Love his cutness. Love his seriousness when he on stage. Love the way that he dance. Love his dorkness when he with his group members. Love the way he eat. Love him when he space off on his own.
Changmin
He's the youngest and the tallest among the group members. Like his constant stares at his older members when they are talking. Like his loves of food. Alway constant cut off by Junsu when it his question time. Like him constant "bicker" with Junsu. Love his smiling eyes when he really happy. When he's mad, he would become scary but most of the time he usually quiet and shy. Sometime when I look at his picture of his longer hair style, it kind of remind me of younger version Jerry Yan of Taiwan F4 or Ceng Shao Zong of Taiwan 可米小子, so i prefer his shorter hair.
So that the reasons why I love this group a lot even thought I don't understand Korean or Japanese language at all. It their way of carry themselves, their groofness, their dorkness, their kindness ,their seriousness in their music, their voices, their dances and care of the others that why they been love by the fans from other countries.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Happy Nui Year Resolution
Gong Xi Fai Cai.
Usually people do their new year resolution on ang moh calendar while i do mine on lunar new year. It special in a sense. The date of the next lunar year is not fix. You know what I mean? Like as ang moh New Year is fix on 1st Jan while Lunar New Year is not fix on a date on the ang moh calendar. (hmm.. I not sure about if the Lunar Year got 365 days a not)
Why now I writing down my resolution this year?
Causes I think if I don't write down what are my goals then I wouldnt have the whole heart to do anything at all.
The Lunar New Year Resolution 2009:
1) Loss at least 5 to 10kg over this Nui year.
I been saying that I want to loss weight from my secondary day till last year, i still can't get my ass off the chair to do some serious exercise. Don't worry about me losing 10kg that just a target to aim for. Right now, i still under the healthy range of BMI.
2) Find a job.
Ya. I need a job. I need $$ for me to live my simple life. My $$ is running very low after I pay my insurance fee in june.
3) Don't be so anti-social.
I think I been really anti-social. Causes, when people try to contact me, I didnt return call or sms, I just simply off my handphone and don't on my handphone for a few days if I want. Or I just disappear from the MSN. I don't on my MSN for a few days also. Causes I don't see a point to chat with people who don't want to reply me when I chat with them when they didnt show they are neither busy nor away. Besides i also don't see a point to talk to anyone and no one want to chat with me.
I guess the more I grow older, I get less chatting. Less topic to talk to, I guess. So now I try be more friendlier. Hopefully, cross my finger on this.
4) Talk to my mother nicely on the phone
I think sometimes I been too hostile to my mother in term of talking. Hmm. I think my close friends know whom I talking to, if it my parents who called me on my phone by listen to the tone that I used while I talking on the phone.
It just that sometime talking to her, my temper just flared up.
It not that I don't love her. It just that sometime she just like to ask some weird questions and answers. Like asking where my brother go to? I mean if you want to find out, why don't you call him, why call me. Where got older brother telling his kid sister where he go to?
Her way of doing things also weird in a sense.
I think I'm having love and "hate" relationship with my mother. Think the "hate" is more of anger type ba.
5) Driving more on the road.
I getting timid on driving, lost my skill of driving and parking after passing for so long. I need the black and white poles to guide me how to park, I think. I wonder when the auto park car system would be in Singapore so that I don't need to park the car on manual.
So crappy. To think i ace all my circuit test without any point been deduct and I can't park a car when i out of the driving center or without help from my father. Maybe should ask my friends to be the "guiding poles" when i out parking, at most roll over their toes with tyres while I park the car. Ho, friends? =)))
i still havent pass my father's test before he let me drive alone so at the meantime, he still seat beside me.
6) Eat less fried/junk food.
Trying to cut down on this. Think these past few weeks, I been eating those junk/fried food. The chinese horoscope say that this Nui Year, it easy for me to get sick. Better be safe than sorry.
Consider that my block nose and phelgm havent clear at all till now.
7) Try to sleep Early.
Not as sleeping at 2 or 3am. The health article say if people sleep before 10pm, it good for the body as the circulation start at 9pm.
Hmm. But now I still fully awake writing my resolution. =p
8) Taking part in some run/walk event.
Be a part of health lifestyle.
9) Go travelling.
Hopefully can go travel oversea this year. Consider that last year I only out to JB.
Maybe I can try to go travelling alone. Hopefully. Out of my timid protected shelter life.
10) Having a boyfriend.
Maybe it kind of laughable since that I never been in a BGR before. People think I got high expectation. I also don't know. I just looking for that sparks ba or something. Me also not sure. When young, I think it kind of wasteful to be in BGR unless that person is the one. It like why go into a relationship when you can't see the future with that person together. I don't want to rush into a relationship just because I never been to one.
Beside, i think I'm a weirdo.
I think I having more crushes. Causes, it like, I like guy A but maybe after awhile, I find that I don't really like him. Then after sometime, I like guy B but maybe after a few days, I don't like him at all.
Ya. I'm not bold enough to ask guy to be my boyfriend. Haha.
I think I'm 80% of a daddy's girl except the crying part as in the explaination below.
What is a daddy's girl mean?
In which a man dotes on his daughter, coddling and protecting her and giving her whatever she wants. A daddy's girl knows that she is her father’s life and often takes advantage of the fact that he can’t stand to see her cry.
I guess I want a guy who dotes,protecting me and that chemisty sparks between us ba.
My 10 resolution. The last one just leave it to fate ba can't rush to it. The rest are mostly health or some goals that I wish I can achieve this year.
Usually people do their new year resolution on ang moh calendar while i do mine on lunar new year. It special in a sense. The date of the next lunar year is not fix. You know what I mean? Like as ang moh New Year is fix on 1st Jan while Lunar New Year is not fix on a date on the ang moh calendar. (hmm.. I not sure about if the Lunar Year got 365 days a not)
Why now I writing down my resolution this year?
Causes I think if I don't write down what are my goals then I wouldnt have the whole heart to do anything at all.
The Lunar New Year Resolution 2009:
1) Loss at least 5 to 10kg over this Nui year.
I been saying that I want to loss weight from my secondary day till last year, i still can't get my ass off the chair to do some serious exercise. Don't worry about me losing 10kg that just a target to aim for. Right now, i still under the healthy range of BMI.
2) Find a job.
Ya. I need a job. I need $$ for me to live my simple life. My $$ is running very low after I pay my insurance fee in june.
3) Don't be so anti-social.
I think I been really anti-social. Causes, when people try to contact me, I didnt return call or sms, I just simply off my handphone and don't on my handphone for a few days if I want. Or I just disappear from the MSN. I don't on my MSN for a few days also. Causes I don't see a point to chat with people who don't want to reply me when I chat with them when they didnt show they are neither busy nor away. Besides i also don't see a point to talk to anyone and no one want to chat with me.
I guess the more I grow older, I get less chatting. Less topic to talk to, I guess. So now I try be more friendlier. Hopefully, cross my finger on this.
4) Talk to my mother nicely on the phone
I think sometimes I been too hostile to my mother in term of talking. Hmm. I think my close friends know whom I talking to, if it my parents who called me on my phone by listen to the tone that I used while I talking on the phone.
It just that sometime talking to her, my temper just flared up.
It not that I don't love her. It just that sometime she just like to ask some weird questions and answers. Like asking where my brother go to? I mean if you want to find out, why don't you call him, why call me. Where got older brother telling his kid sister where he go to?
Her way of doing things also weird in a sense.
I think I'm having love and "hate" relationship with my mother. Think the "hate" is more of anger type ba.
5) Driving more on the road.
I getting timid on driving, lost my skill of driving and parking after passing for so long. I need the black and white poles to guide me how to park, I think. I wonder when the auto park car system would be in Singapore so that I don't need to park the car on manual.
So crappy. To think i ace all my circuit test without any point been deduct and I can't park a car when i out of the driving center or without help from my father. Maybe should ask my friends to be the "guiding poles" when i out parking, at most roll over their toes with tyres while I park the car. Ho, friends? =)))
i still havent pass my father's test before he let me drive alone so at the meantime, he still seat beside me.
6) Eat less fried/junk food.
Trying to cut down on this. Think these past few weeks, I been eating those junk/fried food. The chinese horoscope say that this Nui Year, it easy for me to get sick. Better be safe than sorry.
Consider that my block nose and phelgm havent clear at all till now.
7) Try to sleep Early.
Not as sleeping at 2 or 3am. The health article say if people sleep before 10pm, it good for the body as the circulation start at 9pm.
Hmm. But now I still fully awake writing my resolution. =p
8) Taking part in some run/walk event.
Be a part of health lifestyle.
9) Go travelling.
Hopefully can go travel oversea this year. Consider that last year I only out to JB.
Maybe I can try to go travelling alone. Hopefully. Out of my timid protected shelter life.
10) Having a boyfriend.
Maybe it kind of laughable since that I never been in a BGR before. People think I got high expectation. I also don't know. I just looking for that sparks ba or something. Me also not sure. When young, I think it kind of wasteful to be in BGR unless that person is the one. It like why go into a relationship when you can't see the future with that person together. I don't want to rush into a relationship just because I never been to one.
Beside, i think I'm a weirdo.
I think I having more crushes. Causes, it like, I like guy A but maybe after awhile, I find that I don't really like him. Then after sometime, I like guy B but maybe after a few days, I don't like him at all.
Ya. I'm not bold enough to ask guy to be my boyfriend. Haha.
I think I'm 80% of a daddy's girl except the crying part as in the explaination below.
What is a daddy's girl mean?
In which a man dotes on his daughter, coddling and protecting her and giving her whatever she wants. A daddy's girl knows that she is her father’s life and often takes advantage of the fact that he can’t stand to see her cry.
I guess I want a guy who dotes,protecting me and that chemisty sparks between us ba.
My 10 resolution. The last one just leave it to fate ba can't rush to it. The rest are mostly health or some goals that I wish I can achieve this year.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
I hate shopping
I guess I'm still growing, in term of both horizontal and vertical. I wonder if my height grow a not?
Consider that my feet are getting bigger in vertical way. =(
Previously, was wearing size 38 now size 39 shoes. I got Morton's toe. WTH. =(
I'm a freak. I thinking my second toes are still growing, they are freaking long.
As for horizontal, everyone can guess easily, that is the body shape. KNS.
That why sometimes I hate shopping especially with friends nowaday. Causes, most of the shops display SMALL size clothes or shoes size 35 to 36. Why can't they just display larger size for clothes and shoes. Why only display small sizes. It felt so shitty when the design that I like doesn't come with my size or that I can't fit to any of it. My friends got to wait for me patiently to try the clothes and only later found out that I can't wear that clothes at all, some more, those formal dresses label as Large, I still can't zip it. WTF. Don't label the dresses as large when a person with 36C can't zip at all. I still within a healthy BMI, mind you. Ya. I fill with envy when my friends can fill in the small size clothes nicely.
Don't tell me to go to those shops especially for large people. Causes, I also go there to try the clothes. Their small size is too loose for me. =.=
Maybe I should try to become a bamboo just to fit in those tiny winy clothes or should I try to become a 90kg person to try at the large clothes shops? I guess become a 90kg person should be easier, just eat and sleep consider that part of my lifestyle right now.
As for the feet, there's no cure for it at all. Normally, if I bought a pair of heels that I like but go back home and tried it and realise it a bit tight or too high for my likes, I would usually give it to my mom so that she can wear it. As my mom's feet is a size smaller than mine, she just need to put those sponge to the shoes to wear it but now my feet like growing longer and the shoes size that I bought it getting bigger, she can't wear it with sponge anymore. Now my mother suggest cut off my second toes so that she can continue to wear my shoes. What a great mom she is. =(
Consider that my feet are getting bigger in vertical way. =(
Previously, was wearing size 38 now size 39 shoes. I got Morton's toe. WTH. =(
I'm a freak. I thinking my second toes are still growing, they are freaking long.
As for horizontal, everyone can guess easily, that is the body shape. KNS.
That why sometimes I hate shopping especially with friends nowaday. Causes, most of the shops display SMALL size clothes or shoes size 35 to 36. Why can't they just display larger size for clothes and shoes. Why only display small sizes. It felt so shitty when the design that I like doesn't come with my size or that I can't fit to any of it. My friends got to wait for me patiently to try the clothes and only later found out that I can't wear that clothes at all, some more, those formal dresses label as Large, I still can't zip it. WTF. Don't label the dresses as large when a person with 36C can't zip at all. I still within a healthy BMI, mind you. Ya. I fill with envy when my friends can fill in the small size clothes nicely.
Don't tell me to go to those shops especially for large people. Causes, I also go there to try the clothes. Their small size is too loose for me. =.=
Maybe I should try to become a bamboo just to fit in those tiny winy clothes or should I try to become a 90kg person to try at the large clothes shops? I guess become a 90kg person should be easier, just eat and sleep consider that part of my lifestyle right now.
As for the feet, there's no cure for it at all. Normally, if I bought a pair of heels that I like but go back home and tried it and realise it a bit tight or too high for my likes, I would usually give it to my mom so that she can wear it. As my mom's feet is a size smaller than mine, she just need to put those sponge to the shoes to wear it but now my feet like growing longer and the shoes size that I bought it getting bigger, she can't wear it with sponge anymore. Now my mother suggest cut off my second toes so that she can continue to wear my shoes. What a great mom she is. =(
Friday, January 16, 2009
unwell
Lot of mucus struck at the throat area for the past 2 weeks and suffer from ear block. Can't even hear my handphone sound. Can't seem to clear the mucus. Damn discomfort and can't even breathe properly. Restless.
Friday, January 2, 2009
Wonder Girls' Nobody MV
I guess most of my friends know that right now I into korean pop, variety shows and their dramas. Even thought, i don't understand a single word of what they saying but I just like the tunes of their music, their gags, their story which there are kind people out there to sub the songs and shows to english subtitle. So thankfully of them to sub the songs and shows so that it help those people who are like me who don't understand a single word of what they talking about to understand what the songs and the shows.
So here i present this song that i got hook on recently by "Wonder Girls" and their song title "Nobody". I like this girl group a lot causes they are cute in a way and most of their songs are catchy. Like "Irony", "Tell Me", "So Hot". For this MV, please be prepare as the first part is kind of disgusting but it kind of funny too. If you having dinner at the moment, I guess it would be better to watch the MV start at 2 minute causes the real song start at that spot.
It come with lot of remix that you can find at youtube. This is suppose to be the orginal version.
There even come with Rock, Disco,Rainstone, MetalRock etc.
So here i present this song that i got hook on recently by "Wonder Girls" and their song title "Nobody". I like this girl group a lot causes they are cute in a way and most of their songs are catchy. Like "Irony", "Tell Me", "So Hot". For this MV, please be prepare as the first part is kind of disgusting but it kind of funny too. If you having dinner at the moment, I guess it would be better to watch the MV start at 2 minute causes the real song start at that spot.
It come with lot of remix that you can find at youtube. This is suppose to be the orginal version.
There even come with Rock, Disco,Rainstone, MetalRock etc.
Friday, December 19, 2008
Self reflection
Hi. I 'm back to blog again after Missing In Action for a long time for about 4 to 5 months.
I even MIA away from MSN and SMS during the past few weeks. Isn't that what they call anti-social? Ha.
The reason of why I been anti-social this past few weeks, is because i'm been feeling depress about my life, my studies etc. I need to re-think about it.
My results for my exams were out and the results were so bad. I flunked my exams all thanks to my laziness. I guess Poly and Uni life doesn't suit me at all with all the free time slots during the days.
Causes I do not have the heart to study at home as it too comfortable for me, I do not like the idea of travelling out of my home when I need to spend the transport fee consider that I be spending money.
After all, I quit my job just to go into full time study? Isn't that pathetic? Ha. Even I laugh at myself, that Uni course now evenly open up for part time course instead of only full time course.
People asking me if I regret going into full-time? Well, to say I don't have, is to bluff people. Cause when I was thinking of taking a course to study, I got think of study part time, but the course doesn't have part time course when I want to take it. Beside, I also see my friend working and study part time, it seen hard, so I decided to take the pluck by taking the full time course since that my parents support me to go for studies again.
At least by going full time studies, let me realise that it doesn't really matter if you got a lot of free time to study consider of the time in days but it the will of studying. The reality of the results really hit me hard in the face.
I been pondering if I want to continue with my studies. I know that even flunked my exams i still can retake it but the school fee is not cheap. It cost a few thousands dollars more.
But my father's health has not been good. He got dengue fever during my study period, even thought now he already recovered from it, he been complaining that his hands and legs are constant in pain (think maybe of his old age). Ask him to go for checkup, he do not want it.
Most of my friends know that i closest to my father, it really pain me to see him got to work hard from morning 8am to night 10pm everyday regardless rain or shine for 362 days(minus off the Chinese New Year) to repair dented cars consider that he self-employ and one man show for his car workshop. If there is work, then there is money but there are some days there isn't any cars for him to repair and he just stay around in his workshop just to wait for customers to come with their cars. Sometimes, he would get injure cause of the metal or the glasses from the car part. He need to worry about my expensive school fee and now cause of my laziness, he need to pay extra more money for my school fee. Even my mom gone out to work just because of my school fee. Her legs weren't so good either consider of her menopause.
That why I need to re-think of my life and my studies. Should I give up my studies and go back to work force? Or should I continue with my studies right now?
Life in Singapore is hard, now almost everyone got at least a degree. If I don't constant upgrade myself in knowledge, I would be leave behind but Uni course isn't as easy as ABC in pre-school.
I hate myself for been so lazy, undecide of my future and been wasting my parents'money. That why I been closing up myself to those people around me, I don't even dare to tell my parents of my results, till this week, cause escaping of the reality doesn't help in a way, it doesn't make the world stop.
After I told my mom, she doesn't blame me. She let me decide if I want to continue my Uni course or go back to work force.
Since that, now, my thought has been straighten. I decide to quit my Uni course and go out to work. That doesn't mean that I give up my studies for good. I would work and study part time for my Uni course.
I guess, like what most elders say, "you don't feel pain when you aren't spending your money."
But i feel the pain of my parents' hard work for me.
I even MIA away from MSN and SMS during the past few weeks. Isn't that what they call anti-social? Ha.
The reason of why I been anti-social this past few weeks, is because i'm been feeling depress about my life, my studies etc. I need to re-think about it.
My results for my exams were out and the results were so bad. I flunked my exams all thanks to my laziness. I guess Poly and Uni life doesn't suit me at all with all the free time slots during the days.
Causes I do not have the heart to study at home as it too comfortable for me, I do not like the idea of travelling out of my home when I need to spend the transport fee consider that I be spending money.
After all, I quit my job just to go into full time study? Isn't that pathetic? Ha. Even I laugh at myself, that Uni course now evenly open up for part time course instead of only full time course.
People asking me if I regret going into full-time? Well, to say I don't have, is to bluff people. Cause when I was thinking of taking a course to study, I got think of study part time, but the course doesn't have part time course when I want to take it. Beside, I also see my friend working and study part time, it seen hard, so I decided to take the pluck by taking the full time course since that my parents support me to go for studies again.
At least by going full time studies, let me realise that it doesn't really matter if you got a lot of free time to study consider of the time in days but it the will of studying. The reality of the results really hit me hard in the face.
I been pondering if I want to continue with my studies. I know that even flunked my exams i still can retake it but the school fee is not cheap. It cost a few thousands dollars more.
But my father's health has not been good. He got dengue fever during my study period, even thought now he already recovered from it, he been complaining that his hands and legs are constant in pain (think maybe of his old age). Ask him to go for checkup, he do not want it.
Most of my friends know that i closest to my father, it really pain me to see him got to work hard from morning 8am to night 10pm everyday regardless rain or shine for 362 days(minus off the Chinese New Year) to repair dented cars consider that he self-employ and one man show for his car workshop. If there is work, then there is money but there are some days there isn't any cars for him to repair and he just stay around in his workshop just to wait for customers to come with their cars. Sometimes, he would get injure cause of the metal or the glasses from the car part. He need to worry about my expensive school fee and now cause of my laziness, he need to pay extra more money for my school fee. Even my mom gone out to work just because of my school fee. Her legs weren't so good either consider of her menopause.
That why I need to re-think of my life and my studies. Should I give up my studies and go back to work force? Or should I continue with my studies right now?
Life in Singapore is hard, now almost everyone got at least a degree. If I don't constant upgrade myself in knowledge, I would be leave behind but Uni course isn't as easy as ABC in pre-school.
I hate myself for been so lazy, undecide of my future and been wasting my parents'money. That why I been closing up myself to those people around me, I don't even dare to tell my parents of my results, till this week, cause escaping of the reality doesn't help in a way, it doesn't make the world stop.
After I told my mom, she doesn't blame me. She let me decide if I want to continue my Uni course or go back to work force.
Since that, now, my thought has been straighten. I decide to quit my Uni course and go out to work. That doesn't mean that I give up my studies for good. I would work and study part time for my Uni course.
I guess, like what most elders say, "you don't feel pain when you aren't spending your money."
But i feel the pain of my parents' hard work for me.
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